Excitement

Dad is at home and the surgery was a success.


Now how do I deal with the interesting things going on in my life. Only God knows.

Dad's Surgery

I am at the St. John's Mercy waiting for my dad to get out of surgery. Wow, this is so amazing to be sitting here on the web while I wait. Dad was excited about this and I will be so glad when it is over and Dad can go back to just being my Dad. Don't think life would be right without him. Right now I feel so weird it's almost like I am just going through the motions of life I am not really feeling anything. God knows and He can strengthen.

What I am Thankful For...

I am thankful for being alive and in good health.

I am thankful for survival and the ability to survive.

I am thankful for thoughts. Mine are really scattered today but at least I have them.

I am thankful for my friends who read my thoughts and let me know that they are still my friends.

I am thankful for love and being loved.

I am thankful for stress not lasting always, joy is coming in the morning whenever that is.

What I am Thankful for...

I am thankful for my children. This week they have remind me that there is more to life than just bills, bills and drama. They took a trip to the zoo and showed me that just enjoying each other is still a relevant part of life.

I am thankful for maturity. Spending time with some of my younger co-workers has shown me that I am growing more than I thought and that I can share that with those who want to know.

I am thankful for my mother who is already doing school supply shopping that I dread doing. Thanks for taking care of us Mom.

I am thankful for the diverse group of people that I know. I am so glad that I am open to listen to all and that they are willing to share with me. I know I ask questions that are sometimes annoying but I think they lead to some very interesting discussions.

I am thankful for tears. I have shed a lot of them this week but God.

I am thankful for the unexpected. This coming week is going to bring excitement, disappointment and many other emotions but I am thankful that it is coming.

Mothers & Daughters

How close should this relationship be? Should mothers & daughters discuss every aspect of their life? Like medical conditions or intimate relationship? How much should your mother know about you and how much should you share with your daughter? This is a complex relationship mother & daughter that is not easy to explore. Should your mother be your best friend or should you have the relationship that defines who is older and younger? As usual all have are questions that I guess the answers don't really matter.

Happiness...

Heard a line in a movie that said "Happiness is about choices". I started to think about what is happiness. I guess it is really what I chose to define it as the same as success. If I make what I think are the right choices then maybe I will achieve happiness. What I think would make me happy right now is just knowing what I want out of life. Once I figure out what I want then maybe I will be able to share that with someone else.

What is a Friend?

This is something I have pondered on for years. What is a friend? Everyone I ask see it differently. One person may define one as "a person you know well and regard with affection and trust." Another may define one as "acquaintance: a person with whom you are acquainted." Yet another may define one as someone you just hangout with or talk to sometimes (this would be Johnathan's definition as long as you play with him and do it his way then you are his friend).



I think I am closer to understanding what I think a friend is and that means I do not have many. A friend is someone I can talk to at any time so that would rule out half the people I know because there are certain times of the day that I can not talk to them. A friend is someone who will you call every now and then to see how you are doing even if it is weeks or months apart. That means you call them and they call you not just one person doing all the calling or at least a email occasionally and not something that was just forwarded from someone else. A friend is a person that will tell you the truth even when you don't want to hear it. Even though the conversation may get ugly they still let you know what the truth is despite how you feel about it. Then when the truth has opened a deep wound that person is still there to help you mend it, that's a friend. A friend is a person who will stand behind you and support you even when they know what you are getting ready to do is ignorant and stupid. And then when you fall they are there to help you pick yourself up and move forward.



Then there is the title best friend. Will someone please tell me what that is? Because I am almost 40 years old and I have not figured this one out yet. Google says it is the friend that is closest to you that you trust and share everything with you know their family members and they know yours. I guess because I have never really had or maybe because I don't have one now I don't know what that is.

I would definitely love some feedback on this subject. So everyone feel free to comment.

What I Am Thankful For...

I am thankful for peace of mind because I feel it coming sooner than I thought.

I am thankful for the ability to hear. I believe I have done entirely too much talking lately and it is now time for me to just actively listen to others.

I am thankful for the writers Beverly Lewis and Wanda Brunstetter. Reading these two women's novels based in the Amish community has given me more love for the faith in God that I do have. It has given me an appreciation for salvation as I understand it to be and it has made me thankful that God has covered my sins is His blood so that I do not have to work toward that redemption.

I am thankful for family. My family may not be what I want it to be but one day.

I am thankful for gospel music. For me there is no other genre of music that can remind me that I will be okay. I may be down at one point and put on a Clark Sisters cd and then I remember that I am "Blessed & Highly Favored." Or I can watch Mahalia Jackson on Youtube and realize that God's grace is truly "Amazing Grace."

I am thankful for Joyce Meyer who explains prayer as easy and understandable as ever in her new book "The Power of Simple Prayer."

I am thankful for my baby Rachel, she thinks she is all grown-up now but she will always be my baby. I am so proud of my baby for being focused, determined, responsible and for sharing Trey Trey with me.

What I am Thankful for...

I am thankful for being able to see. I was able to finally get my new pair of glasses and I am excited about.

I am thankful for a place to live. Paying rent is not something I love but I am glad I have a safe place to call home.

I am thankful for vehicles that run. I depend on good transportation more than I realized.

I am thankful for memories. Yesterday I ran across a tape of Ms. Veeve doing praise & worship. I miss you girl.

I am thankful for my brothers--Vannie, Vernon & Vincent. Despite the fact that we don't talk alot I know they have my back.

I am thankful for my dog, Spicey. When no one else wants to go, Spicey is ready all the time and she loves on me even when I won't let her do something.

I am thankful that God is faithful.