Mother Headlam

Today I really miss Mother Headlam. I remember the times when I would pick her to take her to doctor appointments or whereever she needed me to take her. She was so grateful for me picking her up but I tried to explain to her that I probably got more out of it than her because I needed her wisdom, her advice, her understanding and her love. I know her children and grandchildren really miss her, she was precious to us all. Mother would tell me to "Pray, baby, God is going to work it all out." I miss that so much.

I love you, Mother. I wish you were here to show me what faith in God means. I am going to hold on to the example you showed and the stories you told to remind me that God is able and faithful. Thank you, Mother for allowing me to be one of your daughters.

Women & Communciation

Women need to realize that by communicating all sorts of doors will be opened and some might even be closed that should have been closed a long time ago. By that, I mean that if women feel comfortable discussing their sexuality, they might stop settling for less than what they deserve.--Zane--Library Journal, 6/27/07

This quote really got me to thinking today. If I can talk about who I am sexually and what I want maybe I can get it. That's powerful. It's all about knowing what you want and who you are. Talking can be substantial to who I am.

What I am Thankful For....

I am thankful for wonderful children who get on my nerves sometimes but are truly a joy in my life.

I am thankful for a beautiful grandson who loves his grandma.

I am thankful for great parents who support & love me through everything I do even when they don't agree.

I am thankful for awesome pastors who teach the word of God powerfully and then turn and live it the same way.

I am thankful for jobs that I love and for having coworkers that make them worth going to.

I am thankful for the ability to read, exploring other realities has been wonderful for me lately.

I am thankful for friends who keep me sane and in touch with reality, thank you girlfriends.

I am thankful for Ms. Sarah, girl thank you for being there for me.

I am thankful for sleep, I haven't gotten alot of that lately but when I do I enjoy it.

I am thankful for peace of mind that I know is coming slowly but surely.

I am thankful for knowing what love is, it may hurt sometimes but I am glad I know what it is.

I Wear A Pink Ribbon

I dedicate this poem to my mother. I love you Mom!

I Wear A Pink Ribbon

By Kimberly R. Harris

A silent killer with no face.

A thief within the night.

A constant battle for my life

A bitter evil fight.

The scars remind me of the day

It knocked at my souls door.

It tried to rob me of my strength

It left me on the floor.

To survive, I had to sacrifice

My Breast and even my hair

It showed no pity as it snatched

These things without a care.

I started to give up my fight

I felt I could take no more

Then God reached down and

Gently picked me up off the floor.

He wiped my face and blew my nose

Just like my mama use to do.

He said don't cry my child

For I have things in store for you.

I did not bring you all this way

to leave you high and dry.

I love you and you are my child

So hold your head up high.

There is nothing that I cannot fix,

No pain I can't erase.

Have faith and know that I am here

There is nothing you can't face!

So then I threw my hands up high

And gave God all his praise!

For my soul has been uplifted

And my SPIRIT has been raised!

I'll fight this fight with cancer

And I know I will be fine.

For God said it and I know its true,

That VICTORY is mine!!

Mammogram

One day in April I had a mammogram. Then in May the Doc request another one and then the awful word biopsy came up. The surgeon checkout out the films and said I am not sure if you really need this. Another Doc checked it out and said I don't think a biopsy is necessary. This Wednesday I saw the experts at Washington University Cancer Center and they said come back in six months, the biopsy is not necessary. What I thought would be a simple mammogram turned into an adventure but its still all good. Thanks Mom for showing me that I can endure all things and God will give me the victory.

But God...

"No matter what’s happening in my life, when I trust God He can deliver me."

Yesterday morning the gear shift in the car broke, but God.
I drove it to drop the kids off in first gear with no reverse, but God.
The mechanic said the cables weren't even attached to the transmission, but God.
Estimated repairs were over $500, but God.
The car is now fixed and I am not broke, ain't God awesome that's why I trust Him.
As I sat there waiting for the car to be fixed all I could say is thank you Jesus even though it looked like a mess, BUT GOD!